its been a long week and it just started.. Good greaf could this week get longer... Yesterday I realized some one I called a friend isnt a friend... Not cool. today I had to choose my husband over a friend. I will stand by my hubby, he was right the friend was not. My hubby is leaving friday for his first truck haul, and we have no money for him to eat on the road, My son seems to be having a hard time breathing as of lately damn his allergies. Im a simple person who tries to do right by others no matter where it sticks me. I try to save everyone I can in one way or another... Why am I the one that gets shit on all the time... Yes Im a bitch but I live for my friends, I was once told by a friend of mine a long time ago that if I needed her no matter what I could call her and if I needed her there she'd be there even if it ment she would have to lose her job. I'm the same way now, she showed me what a TRUE friend was.. for that im greatful, but im tired of being treated like shit.. I kinda wish I was back in High School because I was treated the same way until that friend stuck up for me and got me away from those people and showed me that its a good thing to be a bitch when its needed.. but now that I cant be a bitch I need to be retaught... Sigh
So today was depressing, I was reminded on how people are cruel and insensitive to others feelings.. My friend Lainy has two beautiful girls one is 4 and the other is 3, and some one pointed and turned their nose up at Natie for being 3 and still in a diaper. It's not her fault nor her mothers. Lainy is an amazing mother and friend. In high school I looked up to 4 girls one was Ashleigh, Lainy, Kc, and Erin. out of those 4 girls i only talk to 3 of them. It makes me sad knowing that I lost one of them as a friend due to something not worth mentioning right now.. But Lainy was fun happy and just a person who showed me to just be me and if they don't like me for me then there not worth my time. Its sad to see such an amazing person who used to be happy a lot become someone who is depressed due to the challenges that have been thrown her way.. But it will make her stronger and happier later on in life.. Out of those four girls I look up to Lainy the most because of how big her heart is and how strong she is.. She deserves nothing but happiness and anything she wants.. I go to her for advise about Wyatt and other stuff.. If you know me you know my son has an autoimmune deficiency and that his doctors dont know much more other than hes lacking red and white blood cells to kill off infections and what may come his way, so I go to her for advise about anything im unserten about. I wish I could remove the cruel people from my closest friends and she is one of them.
